Dreams of spine-chilling proportion

I have had a very troubling and spine-chilling experience. For the last four months i have had dreams where i am a a lumos...it's kind of like a werewolf only holier, it's in one of my books i'm writing. anyways, i'm this lumos and i go to these certain places, either to work their or i just happen upon the certain place. THings that i feel are key events happen at these places. Like for example, at this factoy i go to for work, i find my dad there and he tries to stop me from leaving. I basically come against him and run away. also, in this factory there is something...i cant explain it..there is a force that is in the building in my dream...like a great eye is watching all of the vents unfold. anyways...when my family and i went to clifty falls, i saw all of these places. we didn't go in them...but we drove past them and i just happened to see them. There was the factory and the station. there is only one other placei have not seen...and that is a city where i attack this evil man that killed...someone i dont know who. i scratch him and then flee into the woods. for some reason he turns into a werewolf and comes after me....there is much moe but i don't have the heart to write it down...call me crazy...i don't care.

When life gets you down you know what you gotta do? PAWWWWWTAY!!!!!!

I'm so bored right now I could sit here and do nothing and not be any border. But other than that...it was fun last night at Whitney's party. We swam for 4 and a half hours without stopping and had a blast. I re-made a friend there too. Ever since Mariah quit French we stopped talking. But last night was awesome. We sat and played with the giant fountains they had for about 30 minutes together. Plus we all tried to stand on the rope separating the kiddie pool from the deep side of the pool...that was fun too. Then there was the hot tub...that thing was amazing!! Then we played pool volley-ball until Butch, Mariah, and I had to leave. That was about it for friday.
Today I finally finished the first chapter of my book! It's not long, but it took me a long time because I had to sort all the things i was thinking in my head before i started writing. Tommorow my family and i are going to Clifty Falls...last time we were there there wasnt much water fall to look at...but now that it's been raining a lot...it should be pretty "water-fally".

Heritage

A long time ago my dad said that we Dessauers "owned" a town in Germany called Dessau. I didn't really believe him until today though. I've been thinking about it a lot lately so I went to Wikipedia and searched Dessau. It was in Poland...and Lepold I was the prince of Anhalt-Dessau. Which was Dessau and a part of another region. My dad aslo told me that we orriginated from Crocka, Poland. But I searched that and nothing came up....so it might either be a very VERY small town or id doesn't exist...maybe we did originate from Dessau. Who knows. But I can say this: If we didn't originate from Crocka then I know exactly where I got my art talent from. In Dessau in the time Lepold I's reign there were many famous German artists and poets in Dessau. Maybe that's where we DID originate from...I don't know...I'll post it here if I get anymore news.

Change

Change is coming. I went to YHOP tonight and many things in my friends had changed. first of all ...Scott is no more depressed! He is becoming his old self again!! I could tell that before even he told me because if he's depressed the air around him changes dramatically. Also...i think he just might be a prophet! The things he said to people were wacky...but they made sense. Plus, Megan has finally realized that she has been drifting away from the Lord and is now as i type this battling with the demons that have led her away from Him. It's all so very exciting. Also, Austin is back...he never left but he hasn't talked to me or visited me in 5 and a half months!! Scott and I are going to his house on friday to spend the night...just like the old days.

Worried Sick

You know the expression "Worried Sick"? Well...that's what I am...right now Scott is changing...for worse. Ever since he met Megan it's like his whole life revolves around her. I called him up tonight and told him not to get too stressed over a girl...it's definitely not healthy...physically or spiritually. I also told him that no one likes being around him when he's like this. Me and Kendra have tried many times to cheer him up...but nothing has worked. I remember watching this one movie when I was little and it was about this guy who was so depressed...and his two closest friends tried to cheer him up but nothing worked. I always used to wonder why that guy didn't just get happy. But now I know why...i feel like me and Kendra are those two other dudes. I guess holly wood is more true to the reactions of Human Beings than I thought...unfortunately.

On a happy point...my family and I went to Land between the Lakes today. We saw some bison and elk! If I die before Jesus returns I want to be cremated and sprinkled in three areas. One part of me in a river that flows into the sea, one part of me in the earth in Garden of the Gods, and one part of me sprinkled into the air. I would hate to be put into the ground as a corpse. How unsanitary. Who wants to be worm fodder anyway?

Wondering About the Wandering

I have been vented onto 3 times today...by three different people. All three of them...save one...need God. I know they're seeking something...but they don't know what they're seeking. I want to tell them about to God...but I don't know how to tell them without confusing or insulting them. I guess I'm gonna have to wait for the right time. Plus, Lauren is going off the deep end with Megan...i'm really worried about her...i know i haven't known her for that long...but i feel obligated to protect her from hurt...i guess that's just the Christian in me...i don't know..is it? How can one person be a pillar for so many people? I'm not even sure how i do it. But I do it...and i thank God for that. I just hope that I see Lauren again...I can't stand having a friend that I dont see regularly.
It was Kristine's birthday today! She's been on my mind a lot lately...more than normal...which would mean she is now officially on my mind 24/7...advice to all of my friends out there...if you're gonna fall in love with someone...make sure they live relatively close...if they dont then you're liable to go crazy...i'm surprised i havent already...