Metaphorical Description of my Mind

I have finally mapped my mind completely!! For years I have been trying to find the perfect metaphorical description of my mind, and I have finally found it. An ocean. For those of you who haven't been following my poems in the last three days, this is for you. I describe my mind as an ocean, the shallow parts being the more day to day thoughts I have and thoughts that occur to me often. The deep parts are the places I go only when I need to, or feel like it. The deeps are dark and full of places I have not yet discovered.
I describe my thoughts and feelings and ideals as different types of sea creatures. Ideas and thoughts I picture as fish. I describe beliefs as coral reefs, for my beliefs are not set in stone, but are hard to change, at least for me. I have not found a way to describe my feelings.Maybe they can be fish too?
It is hard to describe the deeps, for I do not go to these very often. However, I have experienced some of these deep thoughts. Many of them, if I were to describe them, would look like giant, complex organisms that look to be a little like eels. Some of these eels are very bad thoughts, that seem to take the shape of barracudas or some other form of aggressive, carnivorous thing. I know deep down that there are thoughts in the deeps I have yet to discover, some that look unlike anything I have ever imagined.
I know this sound boring to you...but I just had to write it down and share it with you guys. It's very refreshing!!

The Storm from Inside Myself

About two days ago, something started to happen to me, something i couldn't put my finger on. There was something different, something was happening inside of me that I couldn't explain. But that feeling was familiar to me, so i blew it off. I shouldn't have done that. Let me try to explain this is clearly as possible. I describe my whole being as very deep ocean, with extremely deep places in this ocean being the deep places of my mind that I rarely ever go and are the most unexplored. The coral reefs and shallow places in this "ocean" are the places I like to spend my time, looking at the beautiful coral and little fish (thoughts and ideas) that i pass by. Well, two days ago, there were a bunch of dark clouds above my ocean, something was brewing, but I was too preoccupied with the coral and fish to notice these clouds. Yesterday, These clouds descended into my ocean, going into the deep places of my mind. Today, they are creating a storm, a storm so unlike the others i have experienced in the past, i have no clue what to do! Instead of this storm coming from the outside and trying to penetrate my ocean, it's coming from the inside of me, from the deep, dark places, where the most horrid creatures live. Before these dark clouds came, I had only discovered some of these horrid creatures in the deep places. But, some of these "horrid" creatures were very great, beautiful fish if you looked at them the right way. But now, the storm is killing them off and creating new breeds of these creatures. This storm is forcing me to explore the depths, for i know that in the depths, is the key to stopping this nasty storm. All the fish in the shallow places have died and floated up to the surface of the water, all the coral has died and is now stone gray. The horrid creatures are thriving, leaving me no choice but to do what I hate most, to go into the dark, and take only a small pouch of light with me. Today is the day of the storm, its either me, or them.

A new Chapter and a butterfly

Not a lot has happened since I posted last. But a lot has happened in my friend's lives, and I'm happy for them. Megan is back to her old self, before she got caught up in worldly things. I'm not sure about scott, but whenever we were talking on the phone, I could feel the difference, he's happier than he ever was. Something has happened to me though, something very odd indeed. When I was riding my bike to Cynthiana, I spotted a dying monarch butterfly on the road. I picked it up and put it on my chest and sat there, talking to it for at least 10 minutes. I know this sounds crazy, but something passed between us, in the areas of my chest where the butterfly was a warmth grew and spread all over my body. then, an icy cold hit me and spread all throughout my body. After that day, I've had more energy and feel healthier than I have in ages. I will remember that butterfly forever, I don't know if it is living now, or is in Heaven with Creator God, but either way, i'm sure it's happy.

Finally!!

Well...I've finally found a group of people to hang out with in this forsakenly small place. The band people!! I went to Pogo Joe's tonight with Butch. When Butch left...that's when the fun began. I got invited to hang out with the band people so i went over there and talked to them for the whole night...i also got hug attacked twice. half the people there already knew my name because poseyville already knew we had moved there from evansville. hat was pretty funny i thought. I also got invited to be in band and journalism...so that's cool too.

Moving Time!!

It's time people!! We're moving! We're going to Poseyville. A little town about 30 minutes away from Evansville. It's one of them towns where everyone knows everyone else...my kind of town! But yeah...it's gonna be awesome!! Anyways, my dad and I have cleaned out the aquarium we got for 50 bucks and are now working on getting the right types of plants and fishies...it's really fun actually. The vision my dad has for it is amazing...it's gonna look so beautiful when it's finished. But yeah anyways...the conoe trip was pretty fun too. I made some new friends and even got invited to go paint balling!! But, it didn't work out the way we had hoped. Jordyn seems really nice. We both really like art and poetry. These days, it's hard to find someone else who writes songs and poetry. So I was glad I met her. Then there was Tess and Katie. They were the kind of people that hated to see anyone alone. It was really weird though cause they both agreed that they felt like they had known me forever. That's how I kinda feel about them too...it was very strange. But anyways, there was Daniel too...he was pretty funny too. He claims he's a speed demon...so next time we see eachother we is gonna race!

A New Chapter

Well...everything has changed....for the better i should add. Scott has seen the light (Praise God!!) and Megan has got right with God and Scott...they're friends again. :)
I'm so very very happy God has fixed everything right up. Now a new chapter has started. Thank God! I pray in this chapter that we would all grow a little bit more in the spirit...for the day of the Lord is close at hand. So very exciting!

Is too busy getting pushed away to care

Well...Scott has officially shut me out. I don't even know what's going on with him anymore. I think it is now safe to say that i only have two more people in the world whom i can tell the crazy things i experience....my mom...and my dad. sad isnt it?
my best friend just built a giant wall around himself in under a week. i'm not sure how big this wall is....but i'm pretty sure it at least scrapes the universe. I guess that's a wanderer's life....a lonely one it must be.
i remember when i was younger i used to think that walking around the world all by myself would be great fun....but then i grew up and realized something....having a best friend is better. maybe this is why God had me meet Kristine...